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Tired, of the good life
July 12, 2008
I'm tired. Of trying to do everything really well, I can't. I can only do my best and what frustrates the heck out of me is that even my best isn't nearly good enough. Don't tell my kids I said this, I tell them the opposite all the time.
I'm tired of answering to mommy, cooking three homemade vegan gluten-free meals a day, perpetually cleaning the kitchen, loving my neighbors, organizing my home, hanging laundry, reading to my kids (gasp - how terrible is that?), coordinating our buying club, homeschooling, making my own soaps and salves, washing plastic bags, gardening, planning the budget and paying bills, hiking, washing the floor, picking berries, washing berries, freezing berries, washing greens, steaming greens, eating greens.
What I want right now is to write, without distraction and to be a rockin' photographer, long sigh......
I think I need a break from all my expectations. My husband keeps telling me I need to focus. I find that so hard because I love my varied and yet kind of cohesive creative, health-promoting, community-minded, planet-saving, life-beautifying pursuits. Ah, what's a mama to do??
Probably take a break, from which pursuit/obligation/interest I'm not sure. Something's gotta go or sit on the back burner. Which reminds me I have to go check that oil extract for making salve I have simmering on the stove.
Maybe I should run off and join the circus. Maybe I need to spend less time on the computer, ouch. Maybe I need to accept I'm not everything I want to be. Maybe I just need to shut up and go to bed early.
I might take a break from blogging, or a break from picking berries or a break from cooking - ha, I wish! I did promise a post today about nasturtiums. I'm almost done that and will post it soon - someday. In the meantime I will be taking a break from something to try and recharge my batteries and truly appreciate the wonderful life I have.
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Cindy on July 12, 2008, 12:12 p.m.
Been there, as well........Three young kids, half an acre garden.......canning.....flowers...... Keep your eyes on Jesus and rotate....Yes, breaks from this and from that at different times....Decide what can and can't go.....just like with a budget.....budget your interests and priorities....but budget God first, then family....... You are a blessing to us all and your writing is great and photos are amazing, but your family is more amazing.
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Andie on July 15, 2008, 6:23 a.m.
...know the feeling. Know it always passes. Your doing great. Take a nice long bubble bath (remember to lock the door). a. P.S You my friend are an ispiration with all you do. wow!
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renee on July 15, 2008, 6:30 p.m.
Wow, thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. I feel I may be getting some perspective and yes, I'm long overdue for a hot bath... be blessed, Renee
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Samantha on July 12, 2008, 4:33 a.m.
I truly understand, I'm at the same point. I even made a list today of everything I have to do, need to do, and want to do and tried to prioritize and make a schedule to fit it all in. It's so overwhelming. I would love to work on photography and creating beautiful things but this might not be the right season of my life for that to be my focus, maybe the beautiful things I'm supposed to be creating are my little one's. Or maybe I should stay off the computer too and then I might have time for more of the fun stuff?! Good luck, I hope you find the balance and peace you are looking for.