missing the creative me

March 26, 2009

I've missed my creative self over the past week. Without my daily time to write, look over photos and put my thoughts together here on this blog I feel like my life starts to unravel a bit.

{photo credit: Brienne Tougas}

I wonder if this is a bad thing; my dependence on a daily computer creative time. But when I write, edit and order my thoughts I feel a release of all that whirs around in my head. And my daily download of photos helps me see the beauty in the chaotic and busy moments of our homeschooling days. Inexplicably, putting it all together - the words and pictures on this blog - brings coherence to my days.

I can look at this blog and say to myself "here, look what you accomplished, isn't it beautiful", irregardless of the dirty dishes on the kitchen counter, toothpaste spit in the sink (from yesterday) and yarn, paper, fabric, scissors and books scattered all over the floor.

During this past week of losing my father-in-law and the change that has brought to our daily routine I find myself floundering creatively. Giving to my children (hopefully) everything they need hasn't left a lot of time for writing, photos and blogging. That's the way it goes sometimes but I'm hoping I can soon start to breathe a little deeper and fill my well before it runs dry.