Mama needs chocolate

January 14, 2009

My son was sick today. Thankfully it was over quickly, kids do that, but I still didn't want to venture out for our usual Tuesday afternoon errand run. Plus, I'll grab any excuse to delay errands, my least favorite home management task.

So I didn't get out till after supper. I had forgotten that running errands in the winter dark is even worse than on a winter afternoon. The snow, the icy steps, the lights from on-coming traffic. The produce stand that closed 5 minutes before you got there. Arrgh..

After discovering the closed market I was feeling a little foul because I'll have to go back tomorrow morning and everything I was planning to do at that time will get pushed back, and everything I was planning to do during that time will get pushed... you get the idea. But all was not lost because my next stop just happened to be by the Starbucks - I swear.

After drinking my Dad's latte's during Christmas I'm spoiled, nothing compares, so I opted for a chocolate chip cookie.

During the 20 minutes in the coffee shop I scanned through the photos of the day. I had grabbed my camera on the way out the door because I kind of planned my Starbucks stop at home (I kept it secret or my kids would of begged to come).

I was so delighted to find this photo from the late afternoon. While cooking supper tonight I happened to look into the other room and notice the beautiful deep blue of dusk in the windows. I shut off the lights, except for the living room where the kiddos were playing and took this shot. Took several actually till I got something I thought might work. When I was scrolling through my photos at Starbucks tonight what really got me was the contrast of the blue and green (our walls are painted green - my favorite color). This photo makes me smile.

I left the softly murmured conversations atmosphere of Starbucks and came home to reality. The reality that I didn't accomplish nearly what I had set out to do at the beginning of the day. The reality that the kids didn't get to bed till 9pm and I am tired and wish I had more time on the computer before I go to bed. The reality that I can never provide and be everything my kids want from me, "mommy I want to sew a purse (my six year old who owns scads of bags and purses)", "mommy I want to go swimming", "mommy I want a lathe (for real, my 7 year old)", "mommy I want a glass of water", "mommy I want, I want, I want..."

The day is about to end, the kids have wants I can't fulfill on their timeline and I'm tired but at least my son is well again and I have some nice photos from the day. Oh, and I did have that chocolate chip cookie - all to myself.