The reckoning has hit me with a sense of regret, loss and failure. I want to explore these ideas, to honestly share some of my observations and reflections. But I'm going to tell you my bias right up front, the thing I know to be true from personal experience and thousands of years of wisdom tradition. These experiences are the very soil, the compost, the rich earth of dead and dying matter full of microscopic organisms making all things new (a resurrecting soil, if you will) out of which abundance grows. I hold onto this as truth.
April 20, 2018
Not going to my grandma's funeral was painful. It was a loss to not be with my family during the remembering and celebrating of Grandma's life. Feeling shame, second-guessing my every decision, running down all "what if?" trails of my life doesn't help matters.
October 26, 2017
A big part of The Reckoning for me is realizing I'm not exempt from the natural order of growth and development. I'm not a special snowflake. I don't get to by-pass the necessary parts of the journey because I'm a good planner. It doesn't work that way.
October 23, 2017
The reckoning has hit me with a sense of regret, loss and failure. But, and this this is a big but, I'm learning to explore those feelings in the healing contexts of remembering, acceptance, and growth.