Control & Change


Wrestling with Faith

Wrestling with Faith

It takes energy to wrestle with my faith. It can be an intellectually rigorous process and it can shake the foundations, and I don't always have the cognitive energy or the emotional security to challenge and question authority, both outer and inner.

Build up to The Breaking

Build up to The Breaking

I hadn't intended to tell the story of The Breaking in the context of vocation and work, but it's the story that has bubbled to the surface in many posts and has been told in bits and pieces, through direct and indirect means, over many months.

The place I want to travel

The place I want to travel

The first part of this post is practical and story-telling in nature. Our itinerary, affordability, roadtrip realities, "how we did it", that kind of thing. The last part is when I delve into the heart, and talk about the "places" I really want to travel.

Summer Intentions

Summer Intentions

We arrived in Montana late Sunday night, after driving west for days on I-94. The air was redolent with pine, the stars bright in the wide open sky. The space felt warm, open, relaxed.

The most radical spiritual discipline

The most radical spiritual discipline

I have not been disciplined with my spiritual disciplines, and I had been feeling a little bad about that. And the swearing.

What do you need to Trust God with? (a lament and a balm)

What do you need to Trust God with? (a lament and a balm)

One of my biggest struggles is that I feel the pace of life is not the pace at which I "should" be living. There is a knowing deep in my core that the state of the world, on all levels, is misaligned with its intended design and purpose; a disconnect ...

January for the rest of us

January for the rest of us

I take issue with most January blog posts I read that focus on productivity, goal setting, and self-improvement projects in general.