Marriage


The irony of the real me

The irony of the real me

When I feel secure I want to go places. I open myself to adventure. But adventures lead to unknown territory, a certain amount of "leaping out in faith", moving past what you can plan, and all of that feels threatening to my security and stability.

Looking for security

Looking for security

I need to own this part of my story and myself. I feel my best self, my confident self, my most at-ease self with security in general and financial stability, in particular.

Did I really say that?

Did I really say that?

A big part of The Reckoning for me is realizing I'm not exempt from the natural order of growth and development. I'm not a special snowflake. I don't get to by-pass the necessary parts of the journey because I'm a good planner. It doesn't work that way.

A season of discomfort

A season of discomfort

Making changes can resolve a present discomfort. But when we resolve this discomfort, a new one will arise. After you encounter this pattern enough you start to clue in that discomfort is part of the human experience.

Walking each other home

Walking each other home

It is a complicated place, this world. And everyone I know is trying to make a home, find and build community in whatever way they can on this blue-green earth.

Deconstruction

Deconstruction

Life presented the opportunity, as it does from time to time, to critically evaluate some of my beliefs and assumptions. To look in dusty corners and to acknowledge some quiet cognitive and spiritual dissonance in my life.

Shifting Gears

Shifting Gears

I feel a lightening of the load in home and homeschool. I have more mental energy for other things. After a seasoning of healing, my confidence has returned and we have a real need to increase our financial means; all of which means, it's time once again to pursue income-earning work.